sunday scaries: 11/08/2024

I decided to start a category named, sunday scaries because I think it should be a law that everyone has to write a diary entry every Sunday to get the scary stuff ( it doesn’t actually have to be scary) that has plagued them during the week, out in a healthy way

 I’m trying to post three blogs a week and I decided to make Sunday the day where I’ll post the first of the three blogs because I hate Mondays. 

I have a few things to get off my chest:

1. i have beef with emma chamberlain and olivia neill

Both women have dropped their youtube game and honestly, it feels rather shitty. They went from being my internet best friends to being my opps (oppositions).

I am still feeling betrayed by Emma . I don’t remember exactly when Emma Chamberlain went from my best friend to my ex-best friend but I feel like things haven’t been the same since . When she changed her videos to those aesthetic videos where it is more music than actual speech, I should’ve known that it was the beginning of the end but in all honesty, I didn’t mind all that much because I still had Olivia Neill (who has also gone on to betray me and who I now also have beef with)

I just need another youtube girly who I can watch whilst in bed and who I don’t feel like is cosplaying Emma. I watch the Emergency Intercom podcast  and obviously that is amazing but we need to bring back real youtubers because Emma is now more a celebrity than she is an influencer/youtuber and Olivia Neill is now AWOL and flitzing around London with the children of socialites and celebrities. 

Not at all in relation to the topic of Emma Chamberlain but Role Model’s new album is perfect. I like it a lot and that is not at all because I feel slightly butthurt about mine and Emma’s breakup…

I have also decided that I need to stop watching true crime because I am slowly becoming very very paranoid. I realise this whenever I go into London because in London, to me, everyone is a criminal and once it hits nightfall, it’s basically a race for me to get home. 

I check my mirrors about 20 times a second and if there is a man even in my near vicinity then it is game over, it’s time to call 999. Not really, but like, almost. I say this all as I watch a video named ‘ The Boy Next Door Killer’ which is obviously not helping anything at all but watching true crime is now more of a habit than anything else. 

In other news, I fear that Autumn and Winter are looming and for the 21st year now, I am entering the cold seasons without a husband. I am heading into my final year of uni and according to my Mother, this is now my last chance to find a man because apparently after uni it is NOT possible to find a boyfriend. 

Fairs. 

I am not signing up for Hinge ( very very demonic app) nor will I sign up for Bumble, Tinder or basically any other dating app because at this point, he’s going to have to just find me. I have given up on the grind, what is meant for me will find me. 

(This attitude of mine is not instinctual and is more forced than anything because it’s hard enough braving the winter, let alone doing it whilst being sad that you are single ) 

Whilst I have given up on my husband hunt, I have taken up an interest in triple jump because I think it looks easy enough. I am going to learn more about triple jump at university and I am also going to join the uni Equestrian club because I think it looks fun. 

11/08/2024 Wishlist ⭐️⭐️⭐️

1. Brown or Black knee boots 

2. Another Sezane Cardigan

3. Get pink nails 

4. New bedsheets 

11/08/2024 SONGS 🪩🪩🪩 

1. Slipfast - Role Model *ha!*

2. Wishes -  Tiny Habits 

3. Blue Green Red - Drake *are we allowed to like Drake now?*

4. Kiss Me - Ruel 

5. Running Out of Time - Ashe

*This weeks moodboard: wellness with a slight drizzle of confusion/bed rotting*

btw everyone should listen to this man’s saxophone cover of All I Want by Kodaline  xxxx