sunday scaries: 18/08/2024

1. I spend excessively and I am not too sure where the money comes from. No price is too high for me, where there is a will there is a way. 

I reckon that I should be banned from ever having a credit card because this week I’ve seen a few videos of girls saying that they are like 11,000 dollars in debt but that they don’t care. As much as I’d like to think that I’d have the same attitude, I fear that I’d have a mental breakdown. I don’t have anxiety nor am I an anxious person but I genuinely think I would wake up with the most crippling anxiety known to man if I was 11,000 dollars in debt. 

2. Very unrelated side note but I’ve been thinking a lot about Jacob Elordi and about how attractive he is.

He’s not even my man crush, because Jude Bellingham is my MCED ( Man Crush Every Day) but I’ve just spent a lot of my spare time thinking about Jacob. I’m quite jealous about the fact that he is with Olivia Jade because I feel like they actually make sense and nothing annoys me more than a couple that genuinely makes sense. 

3. On the topic of Jude Bellingham, this will be news to my friends, I think I am falling out of love with him.

Yes, I do have an entire folder on Tiktok chock-a-block with videos (thirst traps) of him, but I feel like something within me has moved on. I think I had too much exposure to him during the Euros, he was constantly on the TV ( that Adidas Hey Jude Advert is amazing) and he was constantly doing interviews and suddenly the image of him that I had in my head kind of just disappeared because he was always there. I do feel as though I need to be completely honest and admit that I also find his brummy accent severely unattractive. 

This week, I am going to probably spent £1000 because I am going into London a couple of times and apparently when I step foot in that city, I am immediately bankrupt. 

I am having a photoshoot for the magazine on Wednesday and whilst I am super excited, I am also sickeningly nervous because this is actually real and I have a bit of a track record at giving up if things don’t immediately go my way/well. I actually have to publish this magazine because I’ve done interviews and I have spent money on it and I also have made a Tiktok account which would feel embarrassing to delete. 

Luckily, I have the bestest of friends who are modelling and I think it should be a dream. * I hope*

The next two weeks are set to be stressful because I am in the final editing stages of the mag and it’s getting printed soon. I have this vivid image in my head of me receiving the prints and absolutely hating them…

Anyway fingers crossed it goes well and I’m going to now go and watch every single one of the Jude Bellingham thirst traps in my folder to re-fall in love with him again because he’s my current phone wallpaper and it would feel major to delete it. 

Also I’m spending £300 on my hair appointment on Tuesday and if I hate it, I will shave my head. 

I’m not joking. 

18/08/2024 Wishlist ⭐️⭐️⭐️

1. My hair to be nice 

2. Jude Bellingham 

3. Vivienne Westwood Hebo Shirt 

4. Arket Bouclé Jumper 

5. New Bedsheets

18/08/2024 Songs 🪩🪩🪩

1. Thinking of you 1995 Remaster - Sister Sledge 

2. I Can’t Go For That/You Make my Dreams Come True - Glee Cast

3. Holy Spirit- Stormzy

4. Love’s Train - Bruno Mars, Anderson.Paak, Silk Sonic 

5. PINACOLADA - Thisizlondon, Ayra Starr, 6LACK

*This weeks moodboard: girly with a shallow purse and big dreams*

everyone watch the Hey Jude advert xx