sunday scaries: 20/10/2024
I’m sure that many of you probably haven’t noticed that I haven’t written a Sunday Scary for a couple of weeks and that is because my life is not all to interesting and actually the amount of delusional things that I do say and think, apparently does have some sort of limit. This week though, something changed, the world altered and it’s currently ( at least for me) on an incredibly skewed axis.
Liam Payne is dead.
I heard about it after being told to sit down at a pres - my friend Bonnie read it off her phone and I looked at her camera to see if she was filming because I thought it was one of those Tiktok pranks, so I actually laughed. She was genuinely pale in the face and I got my own phone out and searched ‘Liam Paybe’ into Google search and discovered that, it was in fact true.
I was pretty fine that evening and begged the DJ to play ‘Strip That Down’ in tribute although to our collective horror, he shouted over the music that he didn’t even know who Liam Payne was.
I was also pretty fine the day afterwards - I cried a little in bed but then I went to sleep listening to ‘Little Things’ over and over and over again.
Friday was apparently the day that it finally hit me. I was practically inconsolable - my childhood sweethearts, my comfort people, they’d never be complete ever ever again. I drowned myself in edits, kept my focus on X for any new updates and watched music videos over and over and over again, eventually signing off my day of mourning by learning the chords to ‘ If I Could Fly’ on the piano.
I think I’m still waiting for the penny to drop, for it to be some sort of massive prank.
Not to be dramatic but One Direction are the only band or even just celebrities that I have ever been obsessed with and I’m not sure if this is very controversial but I don’t really have any care for their solo careers because in my head, nothing really matters until or unless they are all together again. I think that’s what makes it so difficult, that they will never be together again, they will never speak to Liam ever again, his parents won’t get to speak to him again, his sisters will never get to ring him again and he will never ‘be’ again.
I’m so incredibly lucky that I have never had to mourn anyone in my life so for me, this is a big one. Death, to me, is unfathomable, he had posted on Snapchat an HOUR before he left the world forever. In one fall, he lost his life, his parents lost their son, his son lost his Dad, his girlfriend lost her boyfriend and Louis, Zayn, Harry and Niall, lost their bandmate and friend.
And we, for the people struggling, lost a piece of our childhood.
Perhaps I’m being a little dramatic but it truly is devastating.
I could write about this for aeons but I’ll leave it here.
11/08/2024 SONGS 🪩🪩🪩
Little Things - One Direction
If I Could Fly - One Direction
Strip That Down - Liam Payne
Walking in the Wind - One Direction
LOML - Taylor Swift